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Thursday, February 12, 2009
Opiate Dependence, Heavy Metal & the HotShit Pic Blog
Sitting here at 7am listening to Hell Awaits by Slayer, played neighborhood-disturbingly loud, I contemplate my soon to be turned upside down gay life. I just realised that no gay guy I know actually listens to, let alone LOVES the band Slayer or any heavy metal band for that matter! Am I a freak in both the gay and metal world? Well?Anyway, after another sleepless night I've decided to talk to you about my drug addiction.I'm gonna let you into a part of my life I don't discuss here and that is Opiate Addiction. When I was 22 I was circumcised, prescribed Oxycodone and that was that...instant junkie. I was in love. The addiction quickly spiraled out of control and subsequently, so did my life, my relationship, some friendships and my great job as a Manager. I lost it all due to being so high every day. I was ALWAYS high, from the moment I got up I would swallow handfuls of codeine pills or cold water extract the codeine as liquid. Don't get me wrong, I was never on Heroin/Diacetylmorphine, instead I took Oxycodone, Morphine and Codeine, also Imodium/Loperamide during withdrawal as it is an opiate too and helped ease the symptoms. It was mainly codeine towards the end though due to it's easy over the counter availability. I took an average of 1200mg's daily for 2 years, was a regular at over 40+ pharmacies and after almost dying several times, I was urged to seek treatment, and was placed on Suboxone/Buprenorphine and my life immediately became a hell of a lot better. Years later, I am still an addict, on a higher dose than when I started, and staring my one week away detox in my eye. Next week I get a Naltrexone Implant by Dr George O'Neil in Perth. He actually invented the implant, so I feel very privileged to have him put the implant in place. One can no longer be physically opiate dependent whilst on Naltrexone, it is a guarantee against re-addiction. Fuck I wish I had have detoxed back in the past whilst still on Codeine. Buprenorphine is so much more potent than codeine can ever be and as a result, my addiction 'level' skyrocketed above what is was whilst on codeine. This means a hell of a withdrawal is due for me next week when I get my Naltrexone Implant. I am excited and preparing myself for the agony to come. As I've already been lowering my dose already I feel a constant slight withdrawal, a taste of what is to come once the implant is put in place. Enough of that but if you actually would like to read more about my addiction check out: http://junkieboyfromoz.blogspot.com it is my other blog, detailing my drug addictions.Off that subject and onto the next which is to say thanks to HotShit for the great wank material I lusted over last night! So many sexy pics of young men and their gorgeous packages, check out pic number 2 in the new post 'Part 2', FUCKING HOT, as are all the pics there! Props to HotShit!
Too weird. My addiction was EXACTLY the same as yours. Got exposed to hydrocodone and oxycodone and went crazy with them. Then I moved to Paris where I could get codeine over the counter. I took 80 15mg codeine pills a day, about the same as what you took. Its best that it was codeine not something worse.
I also did heroin a few times near the end. Bad stuff, them opiates.
That is so weird, yet amazing!!! We don't have hydrocodone in Australia and I guess I should be thankful for that...because being the addict I am, I would probably consume and abuse them like sweets, like I did with the codeine pills! Nurofen Plus or Panadeine Forte
I'm gay and pretty much obsessed with heavy metal (especially thrash, death and black metal), have been since I was a teenager back in the 80s. Our type is a rare find indeed.
Best of luck with your addiction... been there myself! -Jay
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Too weird. My addiction was EXACTLY the same as yours. Got exposed to hydrocodone and oxycodone and went crazy with them. Then I moved to Paris where I could get codeine over the counter. I took 80 15mg codeine pills a day, about the same as what you took. Its best that it was codeine not something worse.
ReplyDeleteI also did heroin a few times near the end. Bad stuff, them opiates.
That is so weird, yet amazing!!! We don't have hydrocodone in Australia and I guess I should be thankful for that...because being the addict I am, I would probably consume and abuse them like sweets, like I did with the codeine pills! Nurofen Plus or Panadeine Forte
ReplyDeleteTake care!
Oh yeah, I always liked heavy metal. Not Slayer per se, but I am all about Rock n Roll. Techno and Pop are okay but not my thing
ReplyDeleteI'm gay and pretty much obsessed with heavy metal (especially thrash, death and black metal), have been since I was a teenager back in the 80s. Our type is a rare find indeed.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck with your addiction... been there myself! -Jay