Sitting here at 7am listening to Hell Awaits by Slayer, played neighborhood-disturbingly loud, I contemplate my soon to be turned upside down gay life. I just realised that no gay guy I know actually listens to, let alone LOVES the band Slayer or any heavy metal band for that matter! Am I a freak in both the gay and metal world? Well? Anyway, after another sleepless night I've decided to talk to you about my drug addiction. I'm gonna let you into a part of my life I don't discuss here and that is Opiate Addiction. When I was 22 I was circumcised, prescribed Oxycodone and that was that...instant junkie. I was in love. The addiction quickly spiraled out of control and subsequently, so did my life, my relationship, some friendships and my great job as a Manager. I lost it all due to being so high every day. I was ALWAYS high, from the moment I got up I would swallow handfuls of codeine pills or cold water extract the codeine as liquid. Don't get me wrong, I was never on Heroin/Diacetylmorphine, instead I took Oxycodone, Morphine and Codeine, also Imodium/Loperamide during withdrawal as it is an opiate too and helped ease the symptoms. It was mainly codeine towards the end though due to it's easy over the counter availability. I took an average of 1200mg's daily for 2 years, was a regular at over 40+ pharmacies and after almost dying several times, I was urged to seek treatment, and was placed on Suboxone/Buprenorphine and my life immediately became a hell of a lot better. Years later, I am still an addict, on a higher dose than when I started, and staring my one week away detox in my eye. Next week I get a Naltrexone Implant by Dr George O'Neil in Perth. He actually invented the implant, so I feel very privileged to have him put the implant in place. One can no longer be physically opiate dependent whilst on Naltrexone, it is a guarantee against re-addiction. Fuck I wish I had have detoxed back in the past whilst still on Codeine. Buprenorphine is so much more potent than codeine can ever be and as a result, my addiction 'level' skyrocketed above what is was whilst on codeine. This means a hell of a withdrawal is due for me next week when I get my Naltrexone Implant. I am excited and preparing myself for the agony to come. As I've already been lowering my dose already I feel a constant slight withdrawal, a taste of what is to come once the implant is put in place. Enough of that but if you actually would like to read more about my addiction check out: http://junkieboyfromoz.blogspot.com it is my other blog, detailing my drug addictions. Off that subject and onto the next which is to say thanks to HotShit for the great wank material I lusted over last night! So many sexy pics of young men and their gorgeous packages, check out pic number 2 in the new post 'Part 2', FUCKING HOT, as are all the pics there! Props to HotShit!
Here's a few pics to say goodbye with...
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